I sit and watch

A series of unfortunate events that have set the pace for my life. I try not to let it weigh on me, but the worst happening consistently is nearly unfathomable. After telling a bit of my story to a counselor at ovr , all she could say was that it sounded like the plot from a movie.  Welcome to what it's like to be me. I don't know where to look for any inklings of where i should turn next.   I only hope tomorrow is not so bad. All i can do is hope anymore. 

I exist

I'm not sure why , but I've changed from a short time of once again living my life. Right back to simply existing on this plane of existence.  It's quite disheartening, going from one way to the other with no choice of your own. For year's I've been continuously thrust in ways I had no choice about. Fundamentally lacking control. 

How can i get that control back?

No clue. 

Another day. Another way?

For all to long i've been fighting issues i have no control over. What is it in my psyche that makes me fight thing's that don't work the way i want them to.

I can guarantee one thing though. I'm not going to stop.  Being Glen is the only thing i do right,and i'm not going to quit. Ever.