I wanted to vlog this but i can't

My camera wont work properly.

I have a confession to make.
I have a horrible tendency to push those i love away.
I hate whatever i do when i lash out due to things that i can't control.
I am full of anger, and yet i keep it well hidden in my heart,because i have to.
I have loved someone since i met her years ago,but no matter what i do. The universe fights back, and i feel punished for it.
I was a coward, and i didn't go after what i wanted, because i felt like i didn't deserve someone i thought of as a goddess.
The worst part is, it's to late.

Watching as things change,

The only constant in this world is change, and it is maddeningly prevalent for me and my friends.
The main trouble with helping others is that it opens you up to things that you don't necessarily want to know.
So, as i've learned, you have 2 choices. 1 do nothing, and be like the rest of this uncaring society we live in.2. Continue helping, and deal with the repercussions.

But thos repercussions become less prevalent as time passes. I deal with things with poise, and experience now, because I've learned how to through dealing with them.
This is why i help, to grow my experience,and .make things work how they should. Does this,make me a horrible person? Perhaps,

Good morning?

Today was an interesting morning. Awoke to a right leg that wasn't working properly. Yay, i quickly shook the feeling off, went to the store, bought a new cane just in case, and some decongestants to shake the sniffles. Fun fun, but i don't have time for this crap, i have a world to conquer.