Where do I begin?

     It was Christmas time, their is no denying that. Seeing some people that you miss dearly as the year passes, and some that you wish you didn't have to see at all. Some people you didn't get to see, even though you wished with all of your heart that you could. Then at the end of the say, it is all a passing memory. The Good, The Bad, and the things that don't really fall into either category. I couldn't give much this year, even though I wanted to give everything I could.
      One thing that I can give to everyone now is a Piece of advice. Don't stop, keep moving, and never look back at the things that can't be changed. For years, I did just that, and all it did was hold me back. I stopped, I didn't move, and I couldn't get passed the things that needed to be left go. I don't think I can ever forgive myself for all of the time that I have wasted, wallowing silently in self pity. Don't let yourself do that, learn from my mistakes.

I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas, a Happy Kwanzaa, that you are enjoying Hanukkah, Festivus, or whatever your beliefs are. I don't judge, just as long as you enjoyed it.
     I apologize for the lapse in time after my last blog, I will make time when I find it during my break to continue chronicling my travels in the future.

Deep thinking, as usual

As the year slowly begins to creep toward something new, I have been doing alot of inner contemplations. I have helped as many people as I can, and yet I am not even remotely close to helping the amount that I wish I could. Everyday, I see more and more things happen to people, that even though I believe everything happens for a reason, I cannot find a reason for them. I fight a daily battle with inner conflict, and yet the others that I see in turmoil pain me more than I can even begin to explain. My Cervical Spine is on fire daily, My legs like jelly at times, and My vision is slowly failing. But Still I am compelled to help people that most likely do not want my help. Even if they don't I still offer it with open arms, and heart. Why am I such a Martyr? If you know the answer to that question, by all means, let me know. 
     Apologies to those that were looking for a submission from me this past weekend, but I have been dueling with inner demons that most people cannot begin to comprehend, and I did not really feel inspired to write much until today. I hope you all have a great week this week, and enjoy the holidays, ALL of them. Christmas, Hanukkah, Kwanzaa, Yule,Dies Natalis Invicti Solis, Whatever suits your fancy. 




Glen

Thanksgiving break

     As Thanksgiving break slowly comes to an end, I am proud to say that I am thankful for everyone that reads what I have to write on weekly basis. A Journalist I am not, but I still like to be a voice of reason when it is required.
     Yesterday morning I received another letter from the MS Foundation, even though I am apparently "Taken off of the mailing list". I was also given notice that I am uneligible for the "Brighten your Life" Grant fund because I have personal insurance through my wifes job. It's the crappiest insurance ever, and it keeps on screwing me over. Imagine that, I do the right thing, and get pushed aside in a world of those willing to buck the system. It saddens me to think that so many people are lead to believe that Lying, Cheating, and Stealing are the only way to move forward. I have SO much work to do, if I am going to fix this, and all of the other problems out there.
Have a Great week everyone, I'll write to you next week.

The United States of Entitlement.... and Partisan Politics

I would like to start off this weeks blog with a bit of a Discussion. I have noticed as time goes by that the entire united states is overcome with an affliction. Every day, I hear about how more and more people are entitled to something. Some people truly are, others not so much. Why are we as a society stuck on what we are entitled to. I can honestly say it saddens me in a way that I can't even begin to portray in words.
     The other day, I was discussing with a fellow student about her Ex. He feels entitled not to work, or get trained in any way to move forward with his life because he was diagnosed with Bipolar ism, If anyone is entitled to anything, It is me. Yet I do not scramble to the nearest wall, because I feel this urge to stagnate in mediocrity. Pay attention to this, and alot of things will become clear to you. Nothing in this life is easy, I get that, why is it so hard for people to understand it in our society as a whole? If you know the answer, by all means, let me know. I'd love to know.

Partisan Politics... After the last blog I posted, I noticed a lot of Bickering in comments on what is going on. Republican this...Democrat that... In my mind, Partisan Politics is the downfall of our country. I am neither a Republican, nor a Democrat. I'm a Glen. If I were to see someone, or something that I truly believe would help our country as a whole, I would Vote for it. Electoral College Gripes aside, I'd be the first in the voting booth.
     The true enemy is not one side or the other, it is truly our willingness to let a Party dictate what is right and wrong. Excuse me if I am mislead here, but I was under the impression that Government was designed to be a voice for the masses as a whole. Not one mindset or another. I guess thats just one more thing I need to fix. After all, it is my job to protect, and to take care of everyone.
     As always, I Feel horrible for being that guy as usual, But this going to school stuff is expensive. I know that in the long run, it is all worth it. But its tough to afford everything My daughter needs, My wife Needs, and then finally what I need. And yes it goes in that order. If you have a few dollars you can spare, please donate a bit to help me continue on this journey I have started. If not, thats ok too. After all, Going back to the beginning of this weeks rant, I am not TRULY entitled to your help. Only if you see fit I suppose.Have a Great Week.

A little bit more to add to my pissed off list...

I know, its a Little hard to read, but I'll explain a little bit. For a Long time, i have been fighting with Medicare and My Personal Insurance through my wifes job. I was on the phone with both of the organizations hundreds of times. Neither wanted to pay that cost of my doctor bills, One would say the other was responsible. Even after I sent them a document explaining that the Blue Cross and Blue Shield was my primary insurance they still fought it. After getting that taken care of, I was sent a Bill about what they would cover, and what they wouldn't. What made me angry, is the top Portion of this letter. After My Neurologist Visit, which cost 100.00$, the Insurance company was given a "Discount" of 74.88$. My Co Pay Amount is 25$ which I am Responsible for no matter what. Guess how much the insurance company is Responsible for? the Remaining .12 Cents.... This is absolutely ridiculous. I wonder how many other people this happens to on a daily basis, and are to scared to stand up and say something. Enough of the Complaining though.
     We had a great time at Mepacon yesterday, and I'll post pictures of me in costume with the other members of our group too, as soon as I get them. As always, a Small Donation to help me deal with costs of going to school on a minuscule budget is always greatly appreciated. If you cannot afford it, thats ok too. I am so grateful for any and all help that I get as this time passes, and you have no idea how much It Pains me to even ask, when I feel it is my job to take care of everyone. And I have a tough time taking care of my little part of this world. It is what It is I guess. Hope you all have a Great week. Talk to you next sunday!

Change of Plans, and Thanks to a Mysterious Benefactor

This Weeks Blog.

I'll start this weeks entry with a bit of news. I think it is easier to post what I wrote for my Medical Orientation project to help you better understand what I am thinking. Here it is.

 Although I started on this journey with the distinct purpose of becoming a Medical Lab Technician, I think that being a Medical Assistant is a better fit for what I wish to accomplish. I feel that to better suit my gifts and willingness to help others, being a Medical Assistant in a Neurologists office would be a great way for me to facilitate this. Seeing how I have Multiple Sclerosis, and have learned ways to cope with the challenges it poses through experience, I would be a great addition to any office that deals with this disease.

Statistics indicate that there are currently 350,000 to 500,000 people in the United States who have been diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. Because this disease is not governed by the C.D.C, and often times the symptoms can go unrecognized, or mis-diagnosed, this number is only an estimate.(1) With the number of people with M.S. at such a high number, and with Two Hundred diagnosed each week, I am compelled to help those with this affliction.

If I were to be chosen to help in a Neurologists office, I would take the experience I have with disease modifying therapies, general health practices, and dealing with the uncontrollable problems that may arise due to the symptoms of this disease. It is my belief that learning about M.S., especially by someone newly diagnosed, can eliminate the worst symptom of this disease. The fear of the Unknown.

A Neurologists office is not only about helping people with M.S., and I understand that. However knowing the trials and tribulations that go along with a disease that fundamentally alters the makeup of the mind, and the nervous system. I have experience with many of the patients that may enter the office. I often times discuss problems with fellow patients as a peer rather than someone in a position of power. Often times this lightens their moods, and raises their spirits even though we are in the waiting room for completely different reasons. Once again, its is through my experience with many other people, with many different issues that I feel that I would be able to do the most good in a place that I can draw from personal experience to help those around me.

In summation, I believe that everything happens for a reason. Although my original goal was to go back to school in order to attain a degree as a Medical Laboratory Technician,and move on in my education by getting my Doctorate in Micro Biology. In order to help all of those that need help, and their are so many, I will have to change my goals for the betterment of others as I often do. (2)

The numbers you see are works that I sited, and honestly I sited some of my book in this endeavor. 

Now, On a semi Bright note. I recently found out that I have a mysterious, and Nameless Benefactor. I went to refill my Beta-Seron Prescription the other day, wholeheartedly expecting to have to angrily explain that I could not afford the Co Pay at this time. I was told that someone had placed all of my co pays on a different account to be paid by an E-Check. When I asked for the name, I was told it was not their place to say. Whoever you are, if you read this. Thank you SO much for this help. I takes a small burden off of my family that I cannot even begin to explain. Slowly with each bit of help that everyone gives me, I find myself digging out of this hole that I've been in. If you can find it in your heart to donate a bit more, that would be GREATLY appreciated, and believe me It will be re-payed when I finish this long journey I have begun. Have a Great Week this week, and I will write to you all next weekend.

Another week down, moving on once again.

Many of you that have read my blog in the past have asked for some good news for once. Well, if I had it to give, I surely would. I am doing great in school, although the lesions on my brain at times make it hard for me to memorize some of the things required. I have done my best, and that is all that I can do I suppose. Today is my anniversary, 9 years married and counting. I didn't get to spend much time with my wife, as she worked all night last night again, and our bank account isn't showing any sign of coming out of the Negatives any time soon. Fantastic is all I have to say about that. I feel like my hands are bound behind my back as I have no way of working overtime to make up for the rest. Sure, Mistakes were made in the past. But now, that I am moving forward and trying to make something out of what is left of my life, it always has to be the hard way. I hope you are having a great Halloween weekend, and if you are into the ancient ideas behind it like I am, that you enjoyed your Samhain as well. As always, A small donation is greatly appreciated. If you don't have anything extra to share, that is fine too. Have a great week, and I'll write to you next week.
Glen

This heavy burden I bear...

Life is funny, but not in the haha sort of way. I am always selfless, I help anyone and everyone that looks like they need help. Every one of my friends can attest to the fact that to me they are all family. I have tried asking people for help, some of you have responded, and I am forever grateful for even the small help that has been given. Most of the other places that I have attempted to ask shoo me away, or let me silently fall through cracks that were most likely designed. I have tried invoking God, The Universe as a Whole, Buddha, Allah,  insert as many other deities, or belief systems as you like, and I have asked them to help. Always unanswered. Although I understand that the universe works in mysterious ways,  how am I supposed to help all of those around me when I constantly speak to deaf ears? It is tough being the big brother of everyone in the world, call it an atlas complex if you wish, but it is who I am. Always have been, Always will be. I hope you all had a great weekend. Let me know if there is anything that I can do to help, mind you I have little to nothing to give. But I will give it freely if you ask. Have a good week.

Another Week at school, still fighting to get some kind of help...

I'm going to share with you all an addition to the Prologue of the book I am writing. If you are interested in reading it, let me know and I will send a digital copy to you.

     As the saying goes, if a man loses his son, he has nothing left to lose. Having lost my son, I disagree. After we lost him, we have lost so much more. Time and time again, I am dealt the worst possible hand in life, and yet I still persevere. I try my best to make ends meet, to take care of my family, to be as selfless as I can be. All in the hopes that the ideal "what goes around, comes around." is true. If it is, I have yet to see it, All that happens, more people come out of the woodwork that want something from me. Yet if I ask for something, it is completely for naught, I Guess the best place to start is the most recent things that have sculpted my mind.

Like I said, if you are even remotely interested in reading what I had to write, let me know. I now have to once again search for a few extra dollars in my house to get some gas for my wife and I and hope that my disability check is deposited on time in order to afford the bills for all of our medical costs, and potentially get my car worked one and have a little gas left over to make it back and forth from school. It is what it is I guess. If you feel like donating even a dollar to help me out, it will be greatly appreciated. If you can't thats ok too, I just hope you have a Great Weekend!

Then Glen

First Semester down, on to bigger and better things...Now to get rid of this nagging anger

My first semester, although it was condensed, was definitely quicker than even I expected. I'm pretty sure I destroyed these 3 classes, now I get to start on the super important ones. I'm waiting for my grades from the finals to show up in the mail sometime soon, but I am pretty positive that I aced all three. We'll see though. I've been studying Medical Terminology and Ethics from study guides, and I'll breeze through anatomy, but I'm still going to be studying my ass off for that too.
Now on to my nagging anger issue. Its pretty bad, when I have more of a chance to win 100$ from Publishers clearing house, than getting help from any of the foundations out there that are supposed to be designed to help people with MS. While researching one of my papers for school, I did win 100$ from publishers clearing house, and I did receive it within 2 weeks. It was nice to have enough cash to use for gas, but it was just the luck of the draw. My tire was trashed thanks to the debacle on 81s the other day, and both my wife and I needed gas. It went away in just about the same amount of time it took me to win it. 2 seconds. I've been trying to remain positive about these foundations actually doing something, but today when getting my mail I was once again thrown in the gutter. In the mail waiting for me, A letter from the foundation requesting that my wife attempt to collect more funding. Considering we were told that we were going to be taken off of the mailing list the last time I was spoken to, how am I not supposed to feel tossed aside? Anyone that takes classes with me, or has taken classes with me, knows just how much I help everyone. I am so grateful for the people who have helped me in the past, and I feel like shit for even asking for it in the first place. It is supposed to be my job to take care of everyone. But apparently, I am unable to even be eligible for even a little bit of help from the foundations begging for everyone else's hard earned money. It is my goal to be an inspiration for anyone and everyone, including people with MS. But, how can I tell these people theirs light at the end of the tunnel, and to follow in my footsteps if those that are supposed to help only do so when it fits their agenda. Such is life I guess. Have a great weekend everyone.

Another week over, and only 6 more class days in this semester...

Wow, time really does fly in this crazy world we live in. So far things are going well with school, only a few minor verbal scuffles with people being assholes, but it is what it is I guess. Our First tournament of Champions went over extremely well, I'm just glad people enjoyed it so much, and had as much fun as they did. We are discussing holding another tournament in October, and if we do i'll let people know. Now its time for me to go back to finding more gas money for this week, Which is always fun, thats for sure... I hope everyone has a great week, Thanks for reading!


Glen

And let the war of words begin!

I have had enough of seeing so many people get pushed aside, or afraid to come forward and ask for help. Even though I have had my share of bad experiences with falling through the cracks recently, I am compelled to make something good come of this. I just sent an Email to our state representative to make my voice be heard even louder. If need be I will stand on my house and scream, I will share with you all my words, And although you have read some of these things withing my blog here is the letter in its entirety:

To whom it may concern,

My name is Glendon Yerger, and I have always had a tendency to fall through the cracks in the Medical .Educational,and with the Government as a whole. My most recent experiences with this is  an issue I had with the OVR office in Wilkes Barre. I have been on Disability due to having Multiple Sclerosis for 5 years now. At the beginning of the summer I made the leap in deciding to go back to school in order to utilize my mind rather than my physical strength in order to go back to work. I made the leap into going back to school, just to prove that people with MS can do anything that anyone else can do. Yet with the Ovr Office I fell through the cracks then, and ended up signing myself up for school at Mccann School of Buisness and Technology under their Medical Laboratory Technician degree program. Because I am doing this on my own, I have trouble affording basic things for school, let alone affording Gas to and From Dickson city on a daily Basis.  For a long time I have been fighting tooth and nail to find some sort of help with affording the things I require to help with my MS. Numerous times I have been told I do not meet the criteria, I'm the wrong sex, I'm the wrong ethnicity. Recently, In another leap, I decided to ask for help from several of the foundations out there designed (supposedly) for people with MS who are floundering and or struggling in todays economy and the way that the world is right now. After I attempted to get this help, do you know what I got? Phone Calls pleading for donations for people who are struggling with MS. Pleading with my wife and I to get as much help in assisting these people as possible. After the 4th phone call I flew off of the deep end and called back leaving a message. This is what I said: "I have had MS for 7 years, and I have never been asked if I required assistance. I have a hard enough time making ends meet being on the meager funding that I have, yet I do not beg borrow and steal to help my family. I barely have enough money to afford the expensive and rarely useful medications that I am supposed to use. I would gladly give anything I could to other people with the same affliction as I have, yet I can barely make my own way. Explain to me, if you can, how this system is working?" I have also been having issues getting Beta-Seron, The Medication prescribed by my doctor to help slow the decline of my Physical health due to my Multiple Sclerosis. After calling and attempting to order a new shipment of this medication, I was told that the Mail Order Pharmacy my insurance works through could not guarantee that they could ship me a new order of this medication due to a Pre-Existing Bill on the Pharmacy side of things. I called and had to get the Beta-Seron nursing team, A group of nurses that work with my medication in order to help in any way that they can, involved with my medication. After a long discussion about Ethics and the loss of the Hypocratic Oath thanks to the almighty dollar with the nurse, I was conferenced in with the pharmacy billing side of things with her sitting in as another voice in case the billing side decided to be pushy. I swear if you could hear someone sweat, this billing agent was sweating while typing. My Medication will be delivered on the 9th of September.  I woke up Friday morning with a profound sense of accomplisment, only to hear something being taped on my door. When I checked on it, it was a document from the Luzerne county Tax collection Department, saying that our home is going up for public sale due to Back Taxes, That I know we paid. It almost seems like I am being punished for standing up and making my voice heard, and this happens consistantly. It is my goal to make my voice heard with this letter, as I understand that times are tough for many people right now, alot of them are afraid to come forward and ask for help. After my recent experiences with alot of this so called help that is out there, I can understand why. Thank you for your time

Glendon Yerger 

School week #2 completed... and labor day weekend starts off with a shitfest

School week #2 is now officially completed, and I have a Take home quiz to finish, and another quiz to study along with 2 Projects to polish to make sure they are put together properly. I was planning on relaxing this weekend, and that was thrown out the window as soon as yesterday evening hit. It started out with me getting the Beta-Seron nursing team involved with my insurance, due to them refusing to guarantee a shipment of my medication for next week, due to a Pre-Existing bill on the main pharmacy side of things. I Flipped out then, called and made my voice be heard. After a long discussion about Ethics and the loss of the Hypocratic Oath thanks to the almighty dollar with the nurse, I was conferenced in with the pharmacy billing side of things with her sitting in as another voice in case the billing side decided to be pushy. I swear if you could hear someone sweat, this billing agent was sweating while typing. My Medication will be delivered on the 9th of September.  I woke up this morning with a profound sense of accomplisment, only to hear something being taped on my door. When I checked on it, it was a document from the Luzerne county Tax collection Department, saying that our home is going up for public sale due to Back Taxxes. 5092.00$ that I know we paid. I am still trying not to go punch the living crap out of my car, but it would do no good even if I did. It almost seems like I am being punished for standing up and making my voice heard, and this happens consistantly.

School week #1 in the books, moving forward

I am happy to say that School week number 1 is in the books. I just finished my first quiz in years, and even though it was a take home quiz I tested my knowledge of the material and I'm hoping I did well. Now to find ways to make some extra money for gas this week. I'll make due though, even if I have to walk to Dickson City from Wilkes Barre I'll do it, Or hell maybe I'll sleep in my car. Its not that bad though, and I'm sure I can make it just fine. Everything happens for a reason, and I always make due no matter what shitty hand I'm dealt... No more self pity, no more internal struggle, just me working towards getting my degree, becoming a Lab Technician, and then moving onto my masters, then my doctorate. Look out world, The Glen, is evolving into Mr. Glen, and then to Doctor Glen.

Pissed off doesn't even begin to describe it...

As the title implies, I'm pissed. For a long time I have been fighting tooth and nail to find some sort of help with affording the things I require to help with my MS. Numerous times I have been told I do not meet the criteria, I'm the wrong sex, I'm the wrong ethnicity. Recently, I made the leap into going back to school, just to prove that people with MS can do anything that anyone else can do. In another leap, I decided to ask for help from several of the foundations out there designed (supposedly) for people with MS who are floundering and or struggling in todays economy and the way that the world is right now. After I attempted to get this help, do you know what I got? Phone Calls pleading for donations for people who are struggling with MS. Pleading with my wife and I to get as much help in assisting these people as possible. After the 4th phone call I flew off the handle and called back leaving a message. "I have had MS for 7 years, and I have never been asked if I required assistance. I have a hard enough time making ends meet being on the meager funding that I have, yet I do not beg borrow and steal to help my family. I barely have enough money to afford the expensive and rarely useful medications that I am supposed to use. I would gladly give anything I could to other people with the same affliction as I have, yet I can barely make my own way. Explain to me, if you can, how this system is working?"
And yes, that is exactly what I said on the message I left, and frankly if it pisses people off, Go fuck yourself.

Interesting things...

Well, I am sure a lot of you have been wondering about my health, and the general state the glen. If not, then why are you even reading this? Anyhow, its tough for me to say how I am doing lately, as I really can't give you or anyone an answer. MS doesn't look like anything, especially when Its Recessive Remitting like I have.My vision is pretty fucked, I have lost my hearing in my left ear. Now that the Tree Pollen season is over until next year I can recuperate until the next storm, and then go from there. Its interesting how the body's natural defenses can cause so much havoc when prodded in the wrong way. I've mentioned to some of you about my theory on my personal case. I believe I have a genetic predisposition to an Autoimmune response to tree pollen. From my studies, I've narrowed the culprits down to Cedar and Poplar trees specifically. Exactly what does this knowledge do for me? Jack shit. There isn't any way that I can stave off the inner conflict caused by my immune systems response, nor can I do much to get rid of Cedar and Poplar trees. I sure as hell can't do anything about my MS, but hey, It is what it is. All I can do is just keep breathing, and I will.

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired...

So that cuts it, I'm done letting my crappy past and my disease fuck with me on a daily basis. I'm soon going on the Tysabri, no matter if it kills me or not. I'm Going back to school this summer to get the ball rolling on getting my doctorate. For all of those worried about how I am feeling recently, And i will be honest I haven't been feeling the greatest, I'm done. Out of the ashes of the old glen will rise a new glen, like a Phoenix. For years this disease has slowly eroded my confidence, my sight, my vision, and parts of who I really am, and i'm done with it.
I have to many people to worry about, to many people to take care of, to many things to fix. And after all, I have a world to save. Consider Glenterventions back open for business! If you are feeling generous and would like to help me, donate if you can, if not i'll still keep saving and helping anyone and everyone I can.

Glen

I think I need a Glentervention...

My insurance is the shittiest thing ever...My wife pays nearly all of her paycheck for my primary insurance, and it will not cover my new MS medication due to it being a pre-existing condition. My Medicare will cover the cost of the medication, which is ridiculous in of itself cost wise, but I am then responsible for an Administration fee... 546$ for the first hour 333$ for every hour after.  The process of my getting this medication is a 2 hour infusion, once per month. How in the hell is this even remotely fair? Haven't I been through enough shit in my life to not have too deal with this too? For Fucks sake....What in the hell did I do to deserve this... I may as well do like I have been saying for years and tattoo DNR on my forehead and hope for the best...


I want to kick the shit out of my MS, I want to go on this new medication. I don't want to put my family through any more financial hardships then they already are going through, and it just isn't fair...Sure, I know, Life isn't fair, Get over it Glen. Suck it up and drive on. Thats what everyone says, walk a mile in my shoes and then talk to me... end of story.


I've lost my only son, nearly lost my daughter, my wife is also fighting a long term fight with Diabetes (she was diagnosed when she was 2), my family is ripping itself apart. I do what I can to help anyone and everyone that I touch in my life hoping that by doing good things, I will somehow be rewarded in the end. And what good does it do me? People try to help, most people don't know what to say. Those that do say something usually know nothing about what they are trying to even convey. Who in the hell did I shit on in a past life to deserve this kind of Karma?


Glen

Being an intelligent person in a world full of stupid people

It really sucks, and a first glance I am sure this sounds somewhat arrogant of me to say. Truthfully though there isn't a more truthful statement that could be uttered. I am an intelligent person, and I am very very good and seeing through things that most people think to be true. I have noticed that as a group of people grows, the collective intelligence of the members of this group drops. Mob mentality if you will. I cannot stand it, and it really gets my goat when I see peoples intelligence slowly drop as they are surrounded by more and more people. What can we do to curb this problem? Well I honestly couldn't tell you. If you figure something out, by all means let me know.
I would like to apologize to my readers for my lapse in writing over the past month, but I have been doing many   things of late. Researching my experiment, Working on Strife of Nations (the LARP am part of the design team for) Performing glenterventions, Helping as many people as I can on a daily basis, cleaning out my attic and putting some of the things from there up for sale on Ebay, Kicking ass, Taking names, and Chewing bubble gum. It's too bad I ran out of bubblegum...Be that as it may, expect my Blog to be back in action once again, as I find more time and more things to talk about.

MS and Tree Pollen...

Some of you know, others not so much. I have Multiple Sclerosis. Recently it has been effecting me more and more and so as is my usual recourse, I do some research to see what I can do. Sadly, I hit many many dead ends and am stuck in a rut. I have reason to believe that My personal case of MS is from a severe interaction with tree pollen, and even taking Allergy Medicines has had little to no help. I doubt that anyone who reads this will have much scientific savvy when it comes to MS, but I throw this knowledge out there just to show what I have found.
     Every year around the time that the Tree Pollen counts rise, my Muscle Spasms, Headaches, and issues I care not to speak about increase. Its like Clockwork, and I have written a log in the past several years, documenting this Reaction and Exacerbations of My ms symptoms. As a matter of fact, my Optic Neuritis was diagnosed during a severe tree pollen warning in the year 2000. What can this knowledge do for me, if I have absolutely no recourse other than seeing doctors and Physicians assistants that really don't care about my case, nor do they have a vested interest in my health, other than getting what little money I actually do have. I'm stumped as to what I can do, and I really am not sure anyone can help at all. My last choice as of now is to go on a new drug called Tysabri. This medication has apparently had great results with 999 out of 1000 people that have used it. And then there is the kicker. Tysabri has a 1 in 1000 chance of causing a debilitating brain infection which makes my MS look like I'm hearing some gummy bears to pass the time. My luck with odds has proven to be shoddy at best in the past, and I am not sure what If I want to actually try this medication out. Be that as It may, How am I supposed to go through with all of my long term plans, Helping People, saving the world if I end up on a Vent as a Vegetable in the process of trying to help myself? And thus, I am back to square one. I know, I know, Keep fighting, Keep pushing as hard as you can. Enough Venting for now, and as I've said numerous times "Don't cry for me argentina" A silly little line from evita that I tell people when they are saddened by my inevitable demise.

Should I be more selfish?

I have a condition. And although I have been told that I am as close to Marv In Sin City, not that kind of condition. Well maybe a little bit like that kind, but I digress. The condition which I am speaking of is one where I always want to help. I Help, and I Help, and just to make sure I've Helped enough, I Help some more. And yet most of the time, I feel like I am getting the short end of the stick. Perpetually I am surrounded by a world full of people that through their own selfish outlooks on life they refuse to acknowledge the real and true picture that surrounds them. Yet, they always seem to be completely and totally happy with their lives.  Going from one selfish accomplishment to the next without a worry or care for their fellow men or women. Being that I am the person that I am, I am compelled to try to do something about this, and I am not exactly sure how to tackle this debacle. I am taking suggestions though. By all means, leave me a comment about this. I will also leave you a Comment Question. What color do you think I look the best in? Yellow, Blue, or Grey?

April Fools day, The difference between being a person and a Human, Medical Bills Galore...

So today is April First, and their is a long history of today being a day of Mirth and practical jokes. I would however like to change the scope of this day to something new. I recommend that we change today to a day full of explosions, Viking Raids, and great beards and mustaches. Its just a thought, and It might help keep some of the less kind practical jokes from happening if there is fear of being attacked by Vikings, or potentially exploding if you do so. Its just a thought.
As usual, I've been thinking about alot of things, which is really all I seem to do anymore. Isn't it funny how you can call someone a "Fantastic Person" or on the flip side a "Fantastic Human Being". Technically they both mean the same thing, but the nuances of our language makes them two completely different things. If someone says you are a fantastic person, you know that they are being completely nice and personalizing the comment, acknowledging that you are in fact a person to them and not just a nameless face in a crowd. Being called a fantastic human being alternatively means that you are not so personalized in the eyes of the person that said it. Yet they both really mean the same thing. My mind works in strange ways I know, but Go out and give it a whirl when talking to people, you will be surprised at the complete change in responses you will get.
Today I received a phone call from Hershey Medical Center asking me to pay a past due balance from when My daughter was admitted for Auto Immune Hemolitic Anemia. Now we had recently received a bill from the ambulance company that took her down there from Wilkes Barre, for the low low cost of 2300 dollars that wasn't covered under insurance. Todays total after the bill was received from Hershey? 4500$ total we owe them for saving my daughters life. I am thankful that they did just that, however what use is insurance if I am still paying this much out of pocket? I am on disability, My wife works very hard as an LPN on Night Shift no less. I am doing my best to get the proper training to get off of disability and to get a job in the meager job market that is out there. And now I am torn, Is it better to stay on disability, and HOPEFULLY no one gets sick, or should I continue with my long term plans, and do my best in the long run to potentially save the world? Oh decisions decisions....

A Request for Aid Part Deux...

I wanted to state that asking for assistance as I have done has made me feel horrible. Be that as it may, I will post a picture of my unfinished tattoo so you can see what needs finished. Here is a picture of my fatness and my tattoo in all of its glory...

The rest of the tattoo needs to be filled, and the Words for Good and Evil placed on either side, I think it will look Amazing when completed, but feel free to have differing opinions... Thanks!

Stupid credit cards, Unfinished Business, and a Request for assistance...

So earlier this year I decided to get myself a credit card to help build my credit. And sadly it didn't work out like that. I haven't had it for longer than 5 months and they have been bothering me every day. Thanks to Medical Bills, the extra cost of my medications, and doing my best to provide for my family on a fixed monthly income slowly dwindled my fund to the point of being unable to pay for even the minimum payment. I watched helplessly as my credit score dropped lower every day, and I could do nothing to stop it. Now, I'm stuck with a maxed out credit card that I can't use and is slowly acquiring late fees and interest. Well, what's a Glen to do? Nothing I guess except wait for the next pay I get this month and pay a little more off of it.
I also would like to request the assistance of anyone who is willing and or able to do so. For 9 years I have had a half finished back tattoo. Those of you that know me have most likely seen it. Those of you who have not, I will do my best to get a picture of it in its unfinished state. I am pretty proud of it as I drew it myself, and I guarantee it will be awesome when it is finished. And this is where I ask for your aid. If anyone would be willing or able to help me get this finished, I would be greatly appreciative. Hell, I'd be happy for once and you may even get a smile out of me that wasn't induced by an alcohol binge. I was supposed to have an appointment today to have them start finishing it, sadly I did not have the money to actually get it done. Why did I let it go this long unfinished you ask? Well, there are many reasons. Most revolving around money. Mainly I did not finish it thanks to an artist who couldn't find it in his heart to understand that my son had passed away and that I was unable to make it to an appointment to have it worked on. I would like to have it finished this year as a present to myself, if you will. Those of you who know me are aware that I do a lot for my friends and family, and I rarely ask for anything In return. Therefore, it is with a heavy heart that I ask for this kind of assistance. It may seem frivolous, or stupid to ask for something like this from those that I do not know very well. Be that as it may, I am trying to close a chapter in my life that was fraught with unfinished things due to the deep rooted sadness I carried with me for so many years. If you are interested in helping me with this endeavor, Email me at Gyerger@gmail.com, or alternatively Donate directly to this and other endeavors Via my Tattoo Donation Button in the corner. Thanks!

My Insane Experiment

So many of you may or may not be aware of the fact that I am involved in research for an experiment that may change the face of medicine. For those of you not in the know of the basic idea behind this experiment, I will fill you in.

For starters, I have Multiple Sclerosis. Beyond the lesions on my brain, and generalized constant muscle spasms throughout my body it has been kind to me thus far. However, I started thinking about some past experiments that I did when I was in High School. I did experiments with Vitamin E and a solution that was full of Vitamin E and the basic compounds that are in the mucus that surrounds newts and salamanders. It is well known that certain lizards and other creatures are able to regenerate whole body parts after losing them. My original experimentation was done utilizing this idea, and the compounds involved in that process to help regenerate plants that are afflicted with Plant blights, and insect damage. My experimentation was somewhat successful in the past, but I digress. I recently made the mental leap to utilizing my old findings and discoveries on human's to regenerate damage done to the nervous system. Particularly the Myelin sheath surrounding brain matter and nerves. If a similar process was used to regenerate this sort of damage, the repercussions would be immense. The ability to regenerate damaged nerve's would change the face of medicine. Be that as I may, what have I done since mentioning this earlier? Well, The difference between regenerating plant matter and a human cell is quite a jump. Vitamin E, although absorbed through the GI tract, when done in the levels that I am discussing, can cause GI bleeds and other assorted issues. Also I have figured out a way to make the solution more fat soluble and easier to integrate into the nervous system by utilizing the Pineal Gland. Among other enzymes, this gland is in charge of controlling the excretion of Melatonin. When you think of Melatonin, you most likely think of sleep, and you would be correct in that thought process. Melatonin Is generally thought to cause the state of REM sleep, which regenerates the body in a normal sleep cycle. Not to mention that it is created within the body, and therefore easier to absorb and help with the Process of distributing the needed solution that I am discussing. The Main issue I have right now is how to make the entire solution Fat Soluble. Myelin, just like so many other thinks created in the body, is much akin to a fatty body. Actually it is a fatty body that is used to insulate the nerves much like the external coating on a common electric wire. How then do you make these items that are usually separated and not mixed into a solution form Fat soluble? Which they generally are not? After countless hours of research, I have not been able to find much in the way of a similar attempt, or process. Is my process potentially flawed, perhaps. Am I working hard to figure out what I can do to bypass this and other problems I have encountered? Yes. I will keep you all informed through My blog and other means if needed about my findings.

Is To much advice a Bad thing???

I'm proud to say that I am the big brother to many people, yet lately I've been at a bit of an impasse. By giving out advice to people, most of who don't want to hear what I have to say, probably because they know I'm right, I seem to push some of them away. Often times I come off a bit to harsh, I am aware of that. But I am just trying to help in any way I can. Should I stop being so quick to give advice, or continue being the helpful glen that I hope people love... That my friends is the question that I pose for myself, and all of you that read this during the weekend. I have alot to do this weekend, but It isn't all just plain work. Be that as it may, it is still going to be nonstop after I post this. Wish me luck, and have a great day!

Well lets see...Larping, Bats, and Other assorted fun stuff

So i've been working hard on Strife of Nations since long before day one of its inception. These things take time, I understand that. I just often times get the feeling that my creative input is often times misunderstood. Not sure if there is a way to fix this, its just the way that it is. Strife of Nations aside, let me tell you about my day so far...

I was called today by my mother in-law asking if I would run to her mothers house to remove a bat. I went there, and low and behold. No bat... She had locked herself out of her bedroom, and had removed the doorknob to get back in. I offered to fix the doorknob, but the other half of said doorknob had disappeared. So although I did what I was asked to, I still feel as though I failed... Weird huh...

Now for the assorted fun... What should I do this weekend? I would like to do so many things, but there just isn't enough time to do them all. I have to go help matt with the Aethori Makeup test tomorrow, if even as a second director to make decisions on things, Take Pictures, that sort of thing. I have work to do on research for my "insane" experiment, do some more research for school, trying to figure out which school would best suit my needs for the upcoming fall semesters. Study algebra for june so when I start i'm not looking like a complete idiot when it comes to the process. I want to take my daughter over to the ormando residence to see Cai. And then sunday, head on the 1 1/2 hour trek to my parents who I have not seen in quit a while. I think i should petition the government to change the 24hour time system we use to a 28 hour time system. Just to make the time needed to finish all the things I need to do... and its only going to get better when I really get into a full workload from school... ahh well... the things I won't do to make my friends, family and loved ones proud of me...

To Zine or Not To Zine, that is the Question...

So i'm thinking about reinstating the LARPer.net Ezine, and running it again on the side. I'm not sure if this is a good idea, or if I've got to much on my plate already. With going back to school, working with OVR, Working on Strife Of Nations, Working on research for my experiment, taking care of my wife and daughter, and helping people with Glenterventions, it seems like a bit to much. I know I can do it all, after all the worst part of my MS has been the feeling of isolation compounded by the way my mind works. Who knows, I'm just trying to continue with my day to day routine as I can. Not sure if one or more of my endeavors will be lacking due to my thoughts of reinstating the Ezine. Any Thoughts?