Every day is an eternity for me

From the minute I wake up, until the time I pass out, time eeks on slowly. Tick, tick, tick, tick. The sound I hear as imaginary clocks slowly spin. Its maddening, and disheartening. But such is life, as sad as it is.

This nagging feeling

I have this nagging feeling that I put the cart before the horse, going back to college again. I know what my ultimate goal is, but after starting this weeks essay assignment, I feel like I'm over accentuating what I should be doing. Maybe I'm not smart enough to do these things, maybe I should just get a job that I'll most likely hate, but it'll be making ends meet. This is upsetting, and scary for me. My focus is not dead set on my goal right now, and I don't know how to change that.

Maybe I'm not ok.