I am, therefore I do.

Why do I consistently put myself in positions that are misinterpreted.  My knee jerk belief is that I am perpetually alone,  even when surrounded by a multitude of people. I have been alone since I was first conceived,  and I will be alone the day when I move to the next level. I try to help other people understand that my plight,  although similar to others,  is different from anything else.

Thoughts

Historically,  this month has been tough for me.  My son was born at the beginning of October, and Halloween, that used to be my favorite holiday season, was soured for numerous reasons.  I finally have the love of my life,  and I couldn't be happier,  but being a man who struggles just to make ends meet daily,  and feeling like a burden every day,  and not being a man of means,  both saddens and depresses me.  How do you get a foot ahead,  when every day you are deeper into your head? That, dear readers,  is the question.