This life is funny

Watching the time pass, and wondering what to do.  I sit here alone and watch the beauty of the world slowly change. I am well known,  yet not known at all. I am a very nice person,  but I am the meanest person who you will ever meet. I am often surrounded with people,  yet I only feel right when I am with one person. I am not sad,  yet I often find myself nearly in tears.  I question many things,  but I rarely find an answer. Hey,  I think that this is what they call,  life.

I'm still not sure what I can do to fix this

My life is a chaotic, 
Insane whirlpool of insanity.  But that is the life I have been given.  The universe will not lead me astray. I believe that with every fiber of my being.  I just hope that it will be kind to me for once.  I implore the universe to be kind for once and for it to stop tormenting me for no reason.