For years and years I have been studying my ailment. Two fold reasoning, but it finds the same out come.
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2835842/
As you read this, it explains why the inflammation has been so all encompassing, and in particular how it fundamentally alters the DNA of multiple endocrine systems.
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2966366/#!po=1.80723
Can I get this information published? I don't know.
What has bothered me for years, and lately. For years I have known nothing but loss, loss of sight, loss of functions, loss of people who I thought were friends, loss of family and Close friends. And the kicker, I'm still the same goofy guy that everyone is used to seeing. I have become the rock in many people's lives, and I don't change. Yet deep under all of that, I struggle to find positive things to focus on. I let it go, and I am not sure that letting go is enough to repair the damage of only dealing with loss.
