Another week down, moving on once again.

Many of you that have read my blog in the past have asked for some good news for once. Well, if I had it to give, I surely would. I am doing great in school, although the lesions on my brain at times make it hard for me to memorize some of the things required. I have done my best, and that is all that I can do I suppose. Today is my anniversary, 9 years married and counting. I didn't get to spend much time with my wife, as she worked all night last night again, and our bank account isn't showing any sign of coming out of the Negatives any time soon. Fantastic is all I have to say about that. I feel like my hands are bound behind my back as I have no way of working overtime to make up for the rest. Sure, Mistakes were made in the past. But now, that I am moving forward and trying to make something out of what is left of my life, it always has to be the hard way. I hope you are having a great Halloween weekend, and if you are into the ancient ideas behind it like I am, that you enjoyed your Samhain as well. As always, A small donation is greatly appreciated. If you don't have anything extra to share, that is fine too. Have a great week, and I'll write to you next week.
Glen

This heavy burden I bear...

Life is funny, but not in the haha sort of way. I am always selfless, I help anyone and everyone that looks like they need help. Every one of my friends can attest to the fact that to me they are all family. I have tried asking people for help, some of you have responded, and I am forever grateful for even the small help that has been given. Most of the other places that I have attempted to ask shoo me away, or let me silently fall through cracks that were most likely designed. I have tried invoking God, The Universe as a Whole, Buddha, Allah,  insert as many other deities, or belief systems as you like, and I have asked them to help. Always unanswered. Although I understand that the universe works in mysterious ways,  how am I supposed to help all of those around me when I constantly speak to deaf ears? It is tough being the big brother of everyone in the world, call it an atlas complex if you wish, but it is who I am. Always have been, Always will be. I hope you all had a great weekend. Let me know if there is anything that I can do to help, mind you I have little to nothing to give. But I will give it freely if you ask. Have a good week.

Another Week at school, still fighting to get some kind of help...

I'm going to share with you all an addition to the Prologue of the book I am writing. If you are interested in reading it, let me know and I will send a digital copy to you.

     As the saying goes, if a man loses his son, he has nothing left to lose. Having lost my son, I disagree. After we lost him, we have lost so much more. Time and time again, I am dealt the worst possible hand in life, and yet I still persevere. I try my best to make ends meet, to take care of my family, to be as selfless as I can be. All in the hopes that the ideal "what goes around, comes around." is true. If it is, I have yet to see it, All that happens, more people come out of the woodwork that want something from me. Yet if I ask for something, it is completely for naught, I Guess the best place to start is the most recent things that have sculpted my mind.

Like I said, if you are even remotely interested in reading what I had to write, let me know. I now have to once again search for a few extra dollars in my house to get some gas for my wife and I and hope that my disability check is deposited on time in order to afford the bills for all of our medical costs, and potentially get my car worked one and have a little gas left over to make it back and forth from school. It is what it is I guess. If you feel like donating even a dollar to help me out, it will be greatly appreciated. If you can't thats ok too, I just hope you have a Great Weekend!

Then Glen

First Semester down, on to bigger and better things...Now to get rid of this nagging anger

My first semester, although it was condensed, was definitely quicker than even I expected. I'm pretty sure I destroyed these 3 classes, now I get to start on the super important ones. I'm waiting for my grades from the finals to show up in the mail sometime soon, but I am pretty positive that I aced all three. We'll see though. I've been studying Medical Terminology and Ethics from study guides, and I'll breeze through anatomy, but I'm still going to be studying my ass off for that too.
Now on to my nagging anger issue. Its pretty bad, when I have more of a chance to win 100$ from Publishers clearing house, than getting help from any of the foundations out there that are supposed to be designed to help people with MS. While researching one of my papers for school, I did win 100$ from publishers clearing house, and I did receive it within 2 weeks. It was nice to have enough cash to use for gas, but it was just the luck of the draw. My tire was trashed thanks to the debacle on 81s the other day, and both my wife and I needed gas. It went away in just about the same amount of time it took me to win it. 2 seconds. I've been trying to remain positive about these foundations actually doing something, but today when getting my mail I was once again thrown in the gutter. In the mail waiting for me, A letter from the foundation requesting that my wife attempt to collect more funding. Considering we were told that we were going to be taken off of the mailing list the last time I was spoken to, how am I not supposed to feel tossed aside? Anyone that takes classes with me, or has taken classes with me, knows just how much I help everyone. I am so grateful for the people who have helped me in the past, and I feel like shit for even asking for it in the first place. It is supposed to be my job to take care of everyone. But apparently, I am unable to even be eligible for even a little bit of help from the foundations begging for everyone else's hard earned money. It is my goal to be an inspiration for anyone and everyone, including people with MS. But, how can I tell these people theirs light at the end of the tunnel, and to follow in my footsteps if those that are supposed to help only do so when it fits their agenda. Such is life I guess. Have a great weekend everyone.