The time has come to swallow my pride, and accept that I am not going to get any better. This world has torn me asunder, in a seemingly endless way. I try to find the best way to get out of the hole that I am in, but that is likely not the right way. I just want to feel comfortable in my own skin. I feel happy that I have finally found the love of my life. I have searched for so very long, and she was right in front of me. The lost time and the things that I have experienced are forever engrained in my soul, and it is time to get things in order. I hope to get my life in order and make my life and my daughters life better. To those who destroyed me again, I hope you enjoy the shit you have. I am moving forward and it will all work out the way it is supposed to.
Saturday, August 22, 2015
Thursday, August 13, 2015
The first day of my life
Today is the first day of my life. If you are wondering how that could be, the best things are happening. I am making the best out of seemingly the worst. I am forever blessed with those in my life, and I am forever grateful for them.
Sunday, August 2, 2015
The river of time
For a long time, I have been throwing stones. Skipping them across the river of time laid in front of me. Each time a stone hits the river, a ripple is sent into the fluidity of time. Those ripples are small, and unable to cause the effect that I am trying to cause. To the standard view, I am not causing a change to the forward flow of time, but ripples do not disappear. The more ripples I cause, the more I see the ebb and flow move in a different way. What is astonishing is that I am not stopping them. I am altering the outcomes. Altering life as a whole, for all involved. I am going to keep causing ripples, and I am not going to stop.