First Semester down, on to bigger and better things...Now to get rid of this nagging anger

My first semester, although it was condensed, was definitely quicker than even I expected. I'm pretty sure I destroyed these 3 classes, now I get to start on the super important ones. I'm waiting for my grades from the finals to show up in the mail sometime soon, but I am pretty positive that I aced all three. We'll see though. I've been studying Medical Terminology and Ethics from study guides, and I'll breeze through anatomy, but I'm still going to be studying my ass off for that too.
Now on to my nagging anger issue. Its pretty bad, when I have more of a chance to win 100$ from Publishers clearing house, than getting help from any of the foundations out there that are supposed to be designed to help people with MS. While researching one of my papers for school, I did win 100$ from publishers clearing house, and I did receive it within 2 weeks. It was nice to have enough cash to use for gas, but it was just the luck of the draw. My tire was trashed thanks to the debacle on 81s the other day, and both my wife and I needed gas. It went away in just about the same amount of time it took me to win it. 2 seconds. I've been trying to remain positive about these foundations actually doing something, but today when getting my mail I was once again thrown in the gutter. In the mail waiting for me, A letter from the foundation requesting that my wife attempt to collect more funding. Considering we were told that we were going to be taken off of the mailing list the last time I was spoken to, how am I not supposed to feel tossed aside? Anyone that takes classes with me, or has taken classes with me, knows just how much I help everyone. I am so grateful for the people who have helped me in the past, and I feel like shit for even asking for it in the first place. It is supposed to be my job to take care of everyone. But apparently, I am unable to even be eligible for even a little bit of help from the foundations begging for everyone else's hard earned money. It is my goal to be an inspiration for anyone and everyone, including people with MS. But, how can I tell these people theirs light at the end of the tunnel, and to follow in my footsteps if those that are supposed to help only do so when it fits their agenda. Such is life I guess. Have a great weekend everyone.