Oh fun

I am sick and tired of being sick and tired.  I am constantly feeling the pain caused by my ailment,  yet I am made sadder, because I convert it.
I have explained that before,  but I think that it is an example of trying to get to know myself better.  See,  I am often sad,  and heart broken,  because love finds a way of eluding me. This kills me,  as I get so close and then I have it ripped out from under me.  It hurts to think that I try so hard,  only to find out that I am not going to be able to stay. I love my kiddo and I want to see her often,  but I am not sure if I can stay in this area anymore.  To much sadness and to much noise that is not able to fix itself.  Good god,  universe,  whatever you are.  Why am I so conflicted with this state of affairs.  Good job glen,  why would you ever be able to get things done the way you want.