Life goes by too fast

Every second I am with the love of my life, I feel blessed and happy. The situation is not perfect, and at times I shake my fist in anger at the universe.
Not because I am angry with anyone, but because of how I am reminded every day that I am behind the curve so to speak.
Painstakingly and deliberately I have done everything I can do to make the seemingly correct decision for my health. And everyone else has lived their lives. Have made decisions based on the situations that have befallen them. And here I sit, looking through the dust that was churned up, as everyone else has passed. Living their life to the fullest, while I struggle to keep my body from giving out on me.