For all too long

I have been sitting in a holding pattern.  Going through regularly designed activities.  Getting awake at a specific time.  Showering like clockwork.  Eating the same foods.  Listening to the same music. 

Not sure if it's a disdain for change in general.  Or just that I feel different from the majority of things in my life. 

Either way,  I am trying to embrace the new.  Embrace what may be.  Do everything I can to enjoy this portion of my life story .