Hello darkness

Quiet.  Pulsating.  And surrounding me.  I don't know what it is.  Why it has a tendency to dip into my mind often. At first I simply feel a deep sense of dread.  Crazy dreams.  Sleep is never restful. 

Then I notice my inward sadness,  beginning to slowly, but surely, peek out.  

I often notice it after the tornado has subsided.  Other time's,  I am able to stave it off. 

This darkness has followed me for as long as I have been alive.  And sadly I don't know if there's anything that can be done