is it wrong of me to feel like a sacrafical lamb?

I have been deemed an essential worker since this crap hit. What does that even mean?

My job is an essential commodity.  I am required to keep the gears spinning.  Where I am.  I'm extremely well trained and knowledgeable.  I have, honestly,  been working with all levels of fuel since I was 18.  So it makes sense,  why I do what I do. 

     When it's all said and done.  Most people I meet are grateful for my being there. Yet on a few occasions,  a person appears who is mean,  and plain angry. 

It makes me feel unappreciated. Makes me feel like a lamb walking to the slaughterhouse. Wearing my mask. Washing my hands and face religiously.  Until my skin is chapped and worn.  Emphatically disinfecting common touch areas. 

All while Trying not to fall,  as high pollen counts mean extra inflammation in an already ailing body.  Keeping knowledge safely tucked into my mental lockbox.       

     

Looking at myself in the mirror,  I swear that at times  blood is dripping from my smile. Not because I am afflicted,  but because of a dying capitalist system.  That truly needs to go.

Suck it up Yerger,  suck it up and drive on.