My life is an open book.

My life is an open book.

 

I share my story with everyone, but why. Why am i always so compelled to share my innermost thoughts and feelings without thinking, no one wants to hear? I make mistakes; I profess what I have done. I am my own worst enemy, and yet my own biggest fan. Contradictory.

 

I share my story with everyone, but why. Why am i always so compelled to share my innermost thoughts and feelings without thinking, no one wants to hear? I make mistakes; I profess what I have done. I am my own worst enemy, and yet my own biggest fan. Contradictory as it seems, it is all I know. Mountains seem like mole hills, molehills seemingly mountains. Yet I still struggle with an insurmountable inner conflict ; the world, and myself. I do what is right and honorable in my eyes. But still feel conflicted as to whether or not it was the correct course of action. I am an emotionally driven animal, often too a fault. I struggle with an inability to not accept things i cannot control. I have always had high expectations for my life, and quickly fall into despair when those expectations are not met. What is so different about me, and why do i not truly know myself? These are all questions that only I can answer. And although i question them all on a daily basis, the answer is elusive and possibly nonexistent.

 I know. 

Mountains seem like mole hills, molehills seemingly mountains. Yet I still struggle with an insurmountable inner conflict ; the world, and myself. I do what is right and honorable in my eyes. But still feel conflicted as to whether or not it was the correct course of action. I am an emotionally driven animal, often too a fault. I struggle with an inability to not accept things i cannot control. I have always had high expectations for my life, and quickly fall into despair when those expectations are not met. What is so different about me, and why do i not truly know myself? These are all questions that only I can answer. And although i question them all on a daily basis, the answer is elusive and possibly nonexistent.